It’s been such an exciting and amazing year for me. I got engaged to the most wonderful & kind soul this year. I have learned so much from him and his overall demeanor & spirit. I truly believe he’s changed my life and has helped me to start becoming the person that I have always wanted to be. Of course, I’m still a badass, but I found myself starting to lose the anger that made me so rough around the edges. I started seeing the beauty in so many things & stopped seeing the beauty in things that didn’t have real value. I have clarity of what’s really important. I still love & appreciate designer fashion and expensive cars, but I no longer pine for them and expect them to fill the void and the part of me that once was empty. I don’t need that anymore because I am fulfilled in the way that matters most. It’s funny how you begin to realize how ridiculous & frivolous your wants are, when your needs are actually met. Most importantly, I’ve stopped thinking about myself and started living for our family & our home.
I think I’ve really discovered that life is truly a journey and things just don’t “happen” to you. I’ve learned that I am accountable & that I set the course and pick the roads that I will travel in life and that my attitude determines how smooth the ride will be. It is the understanding that not everything will be perfect and embracing that. I’ve learned to forgive myself for mistakes that I make and to not dwell on the small things because it is only energy wasted that could be spent doing something positive. I celebrate who I am and how the journey has helped me to create myself. I thank God for sending Ryan to me to help me find the right road to travel down, without telling me which way to go. I’ve truly been blessed.
